Quez (quez) wrote,

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Highly Focused Dumbshit

It seems like the longer I have been alive the more stuff I forget. Cumulatively, I couldn't be more right. However, it is more than that. I remember (if I can trust that) being able to keep up a rambling conversation forever. Now, I am so focused on a few thing (read work) that I have become an utter dumbshit on other topics. And being able to pick topics out of the air, Please.

It is disturbing how often I can't think of anything to say. I can actually feel my ego running around kicking over boxes in the blind alley that has become of my mind looking vainly for something interesting to say.

Of course, it might just be that I am out of practice, or have been talking to the same people for so long that I rely too much on non-vocal cues. Or, my mind is rotted by technical BS and bad TV.

Whatever it is, I have become incapable of the conversations that I used to live for. Therefore, I need to break old ground and old topics to regain my ability to blather about useless shit for hours. Now, if I can just schedule the time...
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